So sorry I haven't written here in so long. Just nothing really great going on. Was supposed to be having Frozen Embryo Transfer, (FET) with our frosties Curly and Larry from our first IVF this month, but the daft Consultant told us to go for an unmedicated cycle which has meant I haven't ovulated, (I knew I wouldn't but they don't bloomin' listen), so FET can't go ahead. Will have to ring the hozzy tomorrow. really pissed off, we've missed out on a camping trip with Ann and Jon and lil Jake, plus I'm just an emotional wreck. Feel like I've gone through another 2ww even though I never even got to that this time! So it looks like we will be trying again next month, hopefully they'll agree that I should have a medicated cycle.
Honestly I feel like we are back at the starting blocks again, they should have known about my lack of ovulation, I've been under the hosiptal and having tx for 2 and half years now. Maybe I should have spoken up more. I feel guilty about that too. Bugger, bugger bugger :0( I'm just getting so tired of the whole thing, how long can we keep putting ourselves through this?
Don't worry, I'm not in the depths of despair, just pissed off and fed up.
So anyway, we must have done something since I last posted....oh yeah, we went to see Derren Brown at Liverpool, it was a pretty good show but not as good as the last one we saw. I think that's coz I know how he does the things he does more now, although he's still very clever but some of the stuff was pretty basic magic really.
Went to a bbq at a friends, where a drunk woman, who I'm sure had the best intentions at heart, offered to be a surrogate for us, aftyer telling us she loved being pregnant but didn't really feel much for her two kids...nice. I said politely thanks for offering it's something to keep in mind, when really I felt like saying I don't want that, I want to carry my own kids. I'll let her off, she was pissed but I've had people say that to me when they are sober! Make me feel like a total failure why don't you. Just keep rubbing my nose in it. ! know that some people are happy to go down that route, but we're not and before you offer don't you think it would be polite to ask me if that's what we want? Oh my God, I'm on a rant...sorry, I've just got to get it off my chest!
Other stuff, we've been doing loads of gardening but not been at the allotment much. Anyway, I've done all my baskets and pots, all filled with plants I've grown from seed. got quite a few left over, so I'll be handing them out to folks.
I'm doing the Reaseheath Craft Fair again next Sunday, hope it's not too hot, was bad for business last year. i've also decided to do Halton Show this year. I've sorted out a pitch next to the Continental Market, don't want to be next to the bloomin Sky people like I was last time. They scared customers off!
Going to have a go at making some whipped shea body butter this week and some lip butters too. Hopefully they'll turn out ok. I've been working on a new soap site too, changing the name and style. Just got to get some photos sorted.
So yeah, I think that's it, we're off to the pub quiz at the Bull's Head tonight. not sure if Batty and Hartley are coming I think they are at Thundersprint in Northwich today. will try to post more often again, but I am spending a lot of time playing Sims 2!!!! :0) | 3:10 pm
